As I pull back the curtain

Those who know me, know I have never made any bones that I have suffered depression for most of my life. Nature vs Nurture . . . who knows? I could prove it either way with my life. But one thing I know is I THINK too much. I analyze myself and everything around me. That can be a burden but it has also helped me as a counselor and as a writer. I think about why people do what they do. It interests me. I want to know. I think A LOT about why I do what I do and I try to improve on that. Through the growth and grace of God, I am less harsh and unloving with myself. Well, that and 40 mg of Celexa with a firm commitment to positive, rational truth. I have found that I am allergic to negativity. It makes me sick. . . . very, very sick.

Why am I talking about this? Well, it explains some things about the way I write, I think. My characters have some complex feelings and issues. I like to think it makes them more interesting or layered. Trust me, I know this is not the 'great American novel' (every middle schooler's dream after they read John Knowles or Hemmingway, right?) but I think I have accomplished what I set out to do. And that is, to show flesh and blood people. No picture perfect folks here. Some love the Lord and face challenges. Others look at Christ and his followers and think, 'what is this?'. And of course, who doesn't like romance and a little adventure? I like my characters. . . well, except Pierre. He was a poop head. And I enjoy writing their story. I hope you all will continue to enjoy them too.

If anyone wants to reach out to me privately send me an email at kendra@kaygjay.com